Hm.

For 20 years now I've always felt like I've wanted to somehow do something bigger than myself, become someone bigger than myself. It's only now that I realize I just want to do something that is myself and be someone that's just myself.

So much for doing anything

I'm bad at it all. I feel like I've regressed in many aspects of my life.

I can't sleep.

More realizations.

Apparently I can write down and say that I'll do things, but that doesn't mean I'll actually do them. So far I'm not really making any progress with any of my goals and have mostly been holed up in my house like a hermit this summer.

I'm getting that ever so familiar feeling of restlessness that I don't feel like doing anything about. Despite being so familiar it's quite hard to explain.

Dammit.