Today I got upset and wrote this.

It's in an odd style, I'm not sure what happened:

I don't care, it's a simple a matter as that. Why should anyone take offense to that statement? I'm my own person and I keep on living, that's what I'm concerned about. I'm still here. I still have to keep living. I have obligations such as those to uphold. It's not easy, living, but I keep at it. In order to keep at it, I stop caring. Things happen, I try not to care. People around me seem to care, but they don't have any real connection to it. How do you have a connection with another person so easily? I find making connections like that quite difficult. I'm not very good at it. Other people apparently find connections simply in proximity, or through watching someone on the television. Miles and miles can separate you from someone on a television, yet people still feel a connection? To me that's a disconnect. The more I see someone on a television the more removed I feel from them. I know they're not part of my life and I'm reminded of that fact every time I see them on the screen. To me, they're nothing more than the screen, nothing less. They are the screen and I am me. I can touch the screen, but it doesn't mean I'm touching them. How can you make such a connection? There are billions of people in the world, I only feel connected to those that I know, that I see, that I touch, that I feel. When I can reach out and touch someone on a regular basis, I know that I've made a connection with them. When I hear someone's name or see their picture often, I know I haven't made a connection with them. How do they do it? How do they make that connection? Affiliation? There are plenty of people affiliated with various things that I am a part of, I'm not connected to them. We're simply at the same place, or do the same things. That doesn't mean I know them, that doesn't mean I'm connected to them. I worry about the people I know, the people I touch, the people whom I can make laugh, the people who make me laugh, the people who comfort me, the people whom I feel the need to comfort. The people whom I feel the need to comfort, that is the basis of my connection. Life itself is one large disconnect, from billions upon billions of people, numbers unfathomable to me. How could I possibly connect with someone based off of such arbitrary things? I can't feel for everyone, it's impossible. The sorrow would be overwhelming, unbearable. I only care about the people who I'm connected to, the ones I already care about. I can't simply start caring about someone that I had maybe heard of once or twice before just because something happened. I'm sorry. Hate me, I don't care. I really don't care.